Diary of a Spiritual Awakening in a Young Adult's Body
Stories from an unconventional life growing up
Hi Vibe Team, Akin Isa here, looking unintentionally arrogant in this otherwise cool photo edit. (FYI this was a bathroom in Ultraviolet, no filters necessary.) Where Vibehood started off as being a page for inspiration, tips and deep thinking - yes, it still is, but at some point it seemed the voice of a hyper-emotional young woman started overtaking the narrative. It doesn’t go unnoticed. So, rather than pretending that spiritual development is something you can study from a textbook or sitting all smiley on a yoga mat, let’s be honest here. It’s hands on, it’s dirty, you can’t take part unless you are fully immersed in the experience. There is no growth in watching life go by from the sidelines, you either live or you let someone else do the action for you. By letting outside circumstances dictate what you do, or simply watching someone else take the risk, become the hero or the flop. Sure, it’s a safer, easier way through, but I honestly can’t see it ever bringing anyone true fulfilment. And in a more physical sense, being passive is unlikely to let you off without a over/underweight problem and health condition. Sorry for being that person who says it blunt as, but also not sorry to the ones who benefit in the long run. I’m writing for those of you who are in touch with their inner hero, or at least uncovering that side of yourselves, because from our perspective what is the bigger “flop?” To fail, or perhaps even die, for something you put your all into? Or never leave your comfort zone and forever feel something important is missing? Each can answer for themselves, but I have told you just now who I support, so you can be the judge of if these posts are your cup of tea.
Therefore, that’s a long-winded way of saying, Vibehood blog has had a slight rebranding in our caption, although the chat and social groups still have the same structure. I have a few ideas in place on making a mini series on the realities of growing up on the spiritual journey, instead of just being allowed to make friends and go through the whole coming of age process like a normal young adult. I have already shared a lot of writing from when this experience we call life got overwhelming, and the challenges too intense, and the emotions too repetitive. There will be more. My hope is that in overcoming some of the worst moments in this story, it won’t be just me who benefits in becoming a stronger, healthier and more loving person. Overtime I’m gaining more and more experience to share with others putting up with similar issues, so that their lives can become happier and more whole too. So despite it all, I can’t for one moment say that these tears weren’t worth it. Do I ever want to repeat those years again? Um, no, not particularly. But do I appreciate the importance of challenges in giving us the character we grow into? Yes, and yes again.
There’s been a little tweaking to my home site on www.akinisa.com with new events and resources being added. But you will also find the homepage has the following message…
Think of the challenges and discomfort most of you will go through when it turns out the things you've been taught are a lie and the universe is far, far stranger than it appears. Now imagine trying to do this in your teenage and early adult years. Balancing nature with technology. Philosophy with keeping up to date with the lingo. Dealing with shadow work and then going clubbing later. Doing activism alongside your regular jobs. Oh, and don't get me started on the insane connection between family, friends and romantic partners. It's really fun, when you're not screaming for it to stop, or at least for it to calm the heck down. The rollercoaster is a spiritual awakening on steroids, no kidding you.
Welcome to All Things Akinese - the name of the site run by your host Akin Isa. Here you will find the combined results of many years' worth of hard work, generally unpaid, as sometimes creativity has to come out regardless of whether many people look at it or not. As it turns out, you can't always put a person into a box. They do a bit of everything, it doesn't particularly matter what so long as they're still creating. Well, here are the results.
Admittedly, trying to find young people to share an interest in what I consider fun or important has always been a weak spot for me, until very recently. This year, recently. I finally learnt how to turn the loneliness onto its head and turn it into a strength. Being unpopular is no longer a scary thing, as taught by the Lockdown Protesters, outreach veterans, Patriots and Students Against Tyranny. Having an unpopular opinion is no longer something I will shut up about. If what I say gives you the confidence to now stand and share your own opinion, great, that’s exactly what the reason is. Meanwhile if you disagree, I would hope you find the maturity to debate it respectfully or if not, then simply walk away and not have to speak again. The anger over the injustices we face every single day, alongside those in my own life, has finally overflowed and forced something to give way. Hence why on social medias you will come across my other names Ego Catharsis or Anika Anarchy. Because the old ego had to be destroyed in order to step up into one’s power. And in the least cheesiest way possible, the spirit of revolution lives on. I’m no longer being a doormat to anyone.
Unlike before, the youth who find themselves drawn to a similar path are starting to find each other. By sharing our groups, events and some even appearing in the media, we’re able to connect in a way it was once very difficult to. You know who you are (and no, there are plenty more than just the ones in this photo) just know, you are a credit to our generation.
In the meantime, enjoy your own spiritual awakening. Try to embrace every part of it, treating the moments that suck as a valuable lesson or character strengthener for later on, even if it makes no sense at the time. Please avoid jumping off any bridges in the process. *No pun intended!! **Unless you have a bungee chord attached!!
Love, light, and enough grit to fight.
Look out for later Diary entries!
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